If
you’re already living a soul conscious life, you are aware of the fact that you
are not your human body. I refer to the human body as the human avatar, the
vessel that the soul rides around in while going through its three-dimensional
earth experience.
As
a soul looking in the mirror, you most likely will have an opinion about how
you feel about your avatar. Since we change avatars each lifetime, we will all
have avatars that we love and that we feel are a good reflection of our soul
energy, as well as avatars that we don’t like and so-so ones.
Now
remember, that this is a school and things aren’t always what they appear.
Any
avatar, even a seemingly unfitting one, can serve an educational purpose and
become a spiritual teacher.
I
had the interesting experience this life to be racist against my avatar. My
soul had made peace with every race on earth other than the Europeans. As a kid, I didn’t have a concept of
that yet. All I knew was that I didn’t like my skin color. I couldn’t wait to
get a tan or dress up and wear make-up to play a gypsy or a Native-American. I went through years of self-loathing
and I didn’t treat my body with much consideration. It didn’t feel like me and
I was going to do everything not to be in it.
As
the years went by, I’ve been graced with insight, healing and wisdom that have led to a different attitude and has allowed me to embrace my avatar with
compassion and love. I remember the
day I realized how much I loathed being German.
I
was in college and I was very much looking forward to spending my summer on a
Native American reservation. Culturally these felt like my people.
A
group of friends and I arrived exhausted after a two day cross-country road
trip.
We
were tired but very excited. The girl in charge of our accommodations had
assured us that our host families would be waiting for us.
When
we got there, we were welcomed with cool suspicion. Nobody wanted to take us in.
Sitting in the back of the jeep at a gas station figuring out what to do, my eyes met a group of Natives going to
the store. In their eyes blatant hate. I don’t blame them. They saw the enemy.
I wanted to shout. “Please see my truth, I am not one of them. I am one of
you.”
I
understood her disdain for me, because I felt the same way. One of my friends
and I decided not to stay. We were too ashamed and embarrassed and we didn’t
want to impose. We ended up spending the summer with her family in Cleveland,
Ohio.
It was
a painful lesson for I realized that I couldn’t escape my external reality. It took
me many years to make peace with my avatar and my heritage, especially since
post World War II Germany represented the bottom of the pile. For me, it was bad enough to be
European, but being German felt like an utter disgrace.
I
have come to realize that this lesson was perfect. There was no better way for
me to heal my remaining racist tendencies than to have been given the avatar
that I have.
These
days, I make it my own by letting my soul energy shine through and by taking
extra good care of it. After all, it is my home on this planet this lifetime.
It has also given me the gift to not judge another book by its cover but to be
curious about the soul that resides inside the avatar. It’s freeing and I am
grateful for the opportunity.
So
back to my original question:
How
is your relationship with your avatar?
If
it is not that great yet, I hope that you’ll feel inspired to work on it.
After
all, any avatar is like a mini-universe with all of its little cells and
bio-chemical processes. It depends on you to take care of it and it is working
hard for us every day.
If
you don’t learn your lesson this lifetime, you might have to repeat it….
In
case you are one of the lucky recipients of the perfect soul/avatar match.
Congratulations!
Please
have compassion for the rest of us.
