One sentiment that a lot of souls share as they wake up to
their soul reality is a longing for HOME! It is the awareness that earth isn’t
home and an aching in the heart that reminds us of where we came from. That
desire can be so strong that many of us disassociate from our physical bodies
and live primarily in our upper chakras during these periods.
At times, we
find ourselves judging earth reality more harshly than usual and there is a
sense of impatience for this part of the journey to be completed.
It’s painful! You are homesick! I get it! I have lived in
this place for many years myself.
Now, the good news is that we are all on our way home. No
matter how long the journey is, how many twists and turns there are in the road
or how often you want to give up because you just felt too exhausted to
continue. You are still continually getting closer to that place where you will
be reunited with your loved ones in a dimension that suits your soul perfectly.
When exactly, I don’t know but eventually it will happen. The question is: how
can you be a good sport until you get there?
I spent most of my teens and early twenties longingly gazing
up at the stars with a deep knowing in my heart that home was somewhere out
there. Even though, I was never suicidal, I wasn’t completely committed to life
on planet earth either. I wasn’t respecting my physical body or space that well
and experienced any aspects of earthly manifested reality as rather
superficial.
Well, here is what happened that made me rethink my point of
view and taught me a valuable lesson in “be careful what you wish for”.
It was during my first year in college, a friend of mine and
I decided to spend a long weekend in January in New York City. We drove from
Ohio in her car and had a great time talking, smoking, stopping for endless cups
of coffee and felt like we owned the world. Other than the freezing cold, we
had a fun weekend.
On the way back we were pretty tired and decided to spend
the night in a motel.
When we woke up the next morning, it had snowed. The car
wasn’t equipped for snow but my friend was in a hurry to make it home where her
little son was waiting for her. We decided that even if it took many extra
hours we would make our way back.
We crawled along the Interstate at about 15-25 miles an hour. It was
still snowing and there were few other travelers on the road. Ten hours went
by. We stopped for gas a couple of times and continued on our journey. It was
now dark when we pulled back onto the freeway. All of a sudden, I was filled
with a sense of unease.
As we drove, two street lamps went out right as we passed
underneath them.
My first thought, we are going to die on this freeway
tonight! (Now, for anyone who knows me, I am not the paranoid type at all. So,
this thought was rather unusual to enter my mind.)
I saw my life flash before my eyes and I realized that I had
evoked this moment through my strong desire to go HOME!
My friends, my family and all the things that I love about
planet earth rushed to the forefront of my consciousness.
And with a jolt, I realized that I wasn’t done living my
life. I started to pray with every fiber of my being to be spared on that snowy,
January night somewhere in the middle of nowhere between Ohio and New York. Ten
minutes later, a street lamp on the other side of the road turned on as we
drove by. It was a brighter lamp than the two that went out. I continued to
pray and thought to myself, “something
is going to happen but we will live.”
Ten minutes later, my friend who was driving screamed:
“Sh**, oh no!”
“What?” I asked
She doesn’t answer, but has her eyes are filled with horror
fixed on the review mirror.
I turned around just in time to see two gigantic lights
rushing towards us at high speed.
Next thing I know we are hit hard from behind. The back of
the car caves in, we are spinning at high speed into the opposite lane. The
semi-truck that hit us keeps going. We slam into the center divider. The impact
on the slippery surface keeps us spinning until we finally come to a stop on
the shoulder, mere inches away from a steep cliff.
We were both shaking, but miraculously okay. The car was
totaled front back and sides were demolished. We couldn’t open the doors and
had to wait for the rescue team to cut us out.
I repeated silent prayers of gratitude as I fully committed
to life.
We suffered only from shock and severe whiplash.
I got back to campus and started to clean up my act
immediately. I quit smoking, I started working out and I stopped whining. I
took full responsibility for my life and have made the best out of every
possible moment since.
It was humbling to have to be reminded, in such a drastic
way, about how poorly I had been conducting myself.
I have to say that that was one of the most profound experiences for me this time
around.
So, if you feel homesick take a moment and look around you.
Who and what would you miss if you were to leave today? What would you regret
not doing at least one last time? There are many souls that you have come to
love during your stay on planet earth that don’t call the same place home that
you do? Enjoy them while you are here. There are so many things that are unique
to this location that you owe it to yourself to pause and take inventory?
After doing that, are you really that much in a rush to
depart for good?
Remember, HOME is ultimately where the heart is and our hearts
are big and have the capacity to expand. The place you are longing for is your
destination ultimately but maybe not today.
(And remember, there is this place in your heart where you
can visit with HOME whenever you want. Go there in your meditation. It works
like an Intergalactic version of SKYPE.)
