There is a saying: Heal to become whole to be come holy!
Most of us are in the process of healing at this point in
time.
After thousands (plus-plus-plus) of years of epic miles
traveled, glory and mayhem, war and peace, love and loss, the time has come for
the amnesia to lift and for our soul-selves to remember and to heal. In order
to heal, we have to find the courage to face the truth as we gaze into the
divine mirror of eternity and embark on the adventure of going deep within to
remember who we really are.
And guess what, sometimes that just ain’t pretty.
Many ancient and old souls pride themselves in the memories of
their glory days.
It’s easy to remember and integrate our favorite lifetimes.
The temples, the magic, the power, the pyramids and oh, how
those crowds could cheer…next stop enlightenment.
And yes, you were beautiful and kind and the most popular
person in your town.
And yes, you also were generous and a gifted healer and the
voice of wisdom among your peers.
It is easy for many of us to twirl in the shininess and
perfection of our favorite lifetimes, especially if we are not too amused with
our present circumstances.
But whoawhoawhoa, not so fast! What about all those little
seemingly unimportant pieces of the soul stuck somewhere in the timeline? What
about all those painful losses, the time when you were so greedy that you were
willing to walk over dead bodies in order to get what you want? And the time
when you were too drunk to watch your toddler who ended up drowning in the
river by your house? And then there is the trail of disappointed lovers whose
heart you broke by walking away, cheating on them or making them pay for all of
your unfulfilled dreams? And the pain you felt when your house burnt down and
you watched helplessly as your whole family perished? And all the times you
were abandoned and seemingly nobody wanted you? And the times you had to play
second-class citizen and your back was aching so badly you could barley stand
and your hands were bleeding and there was no end in sight to the misery?
Remember, you have to be whole in order to become holy.
Making peace with your story and tying up loose ends is an important part of
the process. It is not very glamorous, yet very necessary.
For many of us it is much easier to integrate all the bright
and shiny aspects of ourselves but it is the parts that are still traumatized
or/and feel guilty that will keep you from progressing on our journey.
At the end of the day, the truth is the truth, no matter
what illusions you’d like to believe and hold onto. Sooner or later, it will
have to be faced and if you indeed are an old soul, I reckon that it’s fair to
say that it’s later. Unless of course, you are taking your time within the
eternal NOW in which case you might as well skip this post for the time being.
Spiritual ego, move over! Courage, give me the strength to
face myself!
As you walk through life your awareness will leak clues to
indicate unresolved energetic issues. Pay attention!
If a specific pattern repeats over and over again, pay
attention!
When you have a strong emotion to somebody or someone and
you overreact, pay attention!
Here are some pointers and tools that I have found helpful in
my own process and when I work with clients. As always, use your discernment
and add on as needed:
1. Soul gaze with yourself in the mirror. Sit in front of a
mirror and make intense eye contact with yourself. Take note, how do you feel
about yourself? Can you send love, compassion, patience and forgiveness your way?
At times, as you increase the duration of your soul gazing sessions, you might
find that your face shifts and reflects distortion or the energetic haze of
lifetimes you have lived (that could mean you get the brief impression of a
different race, gender, facial features or time period). Once you reach a stage
of having integrated and healed all aspects of self there will be stillness to
your experience and the face will radiate a deep-seated clarity.
2. Some people find hypnotherapy and past life regression
therapy very helpful. That way you can face certain aspects that need your attention
on your internal screen and then decide how best to work with it. No matter
what it is, remember, all experiences serve a purpose and will add to your
wisdom and maturity as a soul once they are healed and integrated. Always,
investigate your unresolved past life data wearing your student-of-life hat.
Being stuck in victim or violator conscience will slow down your healing
process.
3. Are you familiar with the psychological exercise of
working with your inner child?
Basically, you play the part of the parent to yourself when
you have childhood trauma and emotions surface, so that you don’t have to react
from that place to the world around you.
The same approach and idea can be adopted to work with
fragmented soul pieces.
When you feel like something within you is being triggered
that goes beyond your now-persona, tune in to yourself and see what kind of
aspect of self is acting out. Ask to be shown a visual and establish
communication with that aspect of self.
See what it wants and needs for healing and what it has to
say. When these soul-aspects are healed, they tend to merge with the rest of
self and lose their specific characteristics. That’s the integration work of
the soul. Like drops of water ceasing to be individuals when
they hit the surface of a lake or the ocean.
All soul pieces are on their way back home in order to merge
with all of you.
It is the job of the healing process to facilitate this
process.
4. Pay attention to your judgments. Anything and anyone that
we have a strong response to most likely points to some unresolved past life
file. There is a good chance that you have played the part of the people that
you judge the most harshly.
Internalizing and meditating on these feelings instead of
projecting them outwards can be a helpful tool to alchemize deep-seated
unaligned soul currents.
You know that you have completed the process when you can
look at the same situation that you formerly judged with neutrality and
compassion.
Godspeed
Enjoy the journey and remember that darkness is the absence
of light.
Allow yourself to fulfill your divine destiny by embracing
all of you and standing in your truth.
Everyone is welcomed home, no matter how messy the journey
has been.
You’ll see in the end it’s all good!
