Beware Of The Back-Door Ego

Anyone who has been doing spiritual work for a while is going to be aware of the power an out of control ego can have on your life, your karma and your evolutionary process.

Some ego productions are very easy to spot. The person that always needs to be the center of attention, the highly competitive, the vanity and greed driven personality will stick out immediately like a sore thumb. It is however the hidden ego that one has to be more concerned about at a certain point in evolution. How about the self-sabotaging soul on a guilt trip? Seemingly there is no ego left that is how bad that person will feel about what they did. If you look closely you will notice however that it was the gigantic ego that thought it couldn't get anything wrong, that refuses to forgive self as a student of life and move on.

Or what about the self-sacrificial person, please everyone eat before me, don't help me I can do it, let me take care of this for you, you seem tired. There might be a very generous person in there, or again an out of control ego viewing everybody else as less strong, capable, courageous, and abundant in resources than self.

I stumbled across another one within myself this morning. Feeling a resistance to share any of my writing in public, I determined the root to be shyness and insecurity. When I dug a bit deeper and asked my boyfriend about his view of the subject matter he pointed out that there was probably was still a strong ego attachment in there somewhere, otherwise I wouldn't be so concerned. The message rang loud and clear. Haven't fully resolved it yet, but hey making peace with being a work in progress is always a good start right?!

Make Peace With Your True Nature

So, here is a big one for all of us. First of all, congratulations to all of you who have already mastered this step! And may we be blessed with a lot of encouragement and dedication for all of us who are still working on it (maybe this lifetime will be the one?!). 

The name of the game is making peace with your true nature when creation is filled with bigger, brighter and different souls that it'll make your head spin. As you probably have noticed by know, just because we all share human costumes, doesn't mean we share the same soul heritage. Therefore the differences we are confronted with on a daily basis are huge (read posts on soulism and who are you competing with?).

 But no matter who surrounds us, it is our job to confidently embrace our true nature, manifest divine light through our vessel and maximize our true potential the best that we can, instead of staying stuck in an insecurity loop for everything we are not. Remember, Divine Source knew what he/she was doing even if you haven't gotten the memo yet!

One of the games I like to play on my journey to full self-acceptance is: I picture myself and the people around me as different animal species, different plant species, as sci-fi characters and as mystical/fairy tale creatures. It helps me to put things into perspective because it is easy to see that a deer isn't better or worse than a dolphin, a lotus flower isn't superior or inferior to an oak tree as a matter of fact it is clear that it isn't even fair to compare them for they are so different. If you take these examples ask your self:

Who am I in this story? What are my talents? What is my job/purpose and how can I maximize my potential?

The answers you'll receive might reveal your role this life, or if you already have an expanded awareness you might be able to tune into the larger picture version.

Either way, I want to encourage you to work on it and to maximize your potential, for you are unique and no accident. 

Life Purpose- An Expanded View

We all at times have questions in regards to our life purpose. What am I meant to do this life? What is my divine mission? Where do I belong? How do I give my life meaning? What is the task that will bring my soul fulfillment?

This has been one of the repeat topics in many sessions. One of the things I have observed is that many people associate life purpose with a specific professional calling. There is an expectation that once the divine professional purpose has been found; fame and fortune are sure to follow. Souls that don't have a specific vocational calling often find themselves tormented by a sense of being left out. I do believe this point of view is a product of social condition and the industrialized, capitalist society we live in.

If we look at the question of life purpose from the soul perspective we get an expanded view.

First of all most souls in most lifetimes have multi purposes.

Some of them have to do with developing internal states of being like compassion, trust, faith, patience etc. Depending on what you signed up for, life will create an abundant amount of situations to give you the opportunity to practice your subject(s) of choice.

Others will have to do with clearing/resolving karmic issues, which could lead to you marrying your worst enemy (in that moment, resolving this dysfunctional relationship would be a big part of your life purpose).

So, the romantic notion of one's life purpose being fun and fulfilling won't always be the case, the opposite might be true, the most annoying aspect of your life might be exactly what you are meant to focus on.

Professions can be an aspect of the purpose of course, but some of them aren't very glamorous. You might be called to play support staff in some project, because your soul chose to put the ego on a diet, while still helping out.

So if you fall into the large category of people who haven't had a calling to become the next Mozart, or a doctor from the tender age of three, do not despair! Your life purpose(s) will find you whether you like it or not! Look out for the themes that keep coming back and remember your enlightenment practice has more dimensions to it than the ego could ever comprehend. Show up with as much good humor as you can, work with what you have and what presents itself and live your life step by step.

As long as you are willing to pay attention and to follow the impulses, no matter how insignificant they might seem; you will stay on track. And don't forget to have some fun!

The Gauges

If you look at yourself as divided into physical, emotional, mental and energetic body all of them function together, yet have the ability to act independently from each other. You can be scared and have your physical self enjoy perfect health at the same time. Your mental body might be hyper active, while your emotional body is calm. Your energetic body could be going through a metamorphosis, while the rest of you is asleep.

There is a great attachment in our society to have all the bodies run at high performance level all the time. We want to feel good, healthy, strong, successful and happy on all levels. When one of the bodies is disturbed by a 'negative' frequency we are quick to look for a quick fix. A painkiller here, an anti-depressant there, a joint to take the edge off etc. are the tools we often reach for.

Don't get me wrong, I think there is a time and place for everything, but don't be too lazy. I have started to look at my bodies at gauges. Imagine you are flying an airplane and you have all these different instruments in front of you, letting you know your height, your speed, fuel level and the course you are on. If you are in a plane, you would want to know all these pieces of data, otherwise you might crash. Life isn't much different. Depression is an indicator that something in yourself is being depressed in the way you live your life. It could be your current relationship, or your job, a lack of exercise, no time for what you love or a past-life trauma surfacing. How would you know what you're dealing with? Well certainly not by using a hammer and smashing the gauge. ("Stupid oil light stop blinking at me!" smash, "there I showed you!"…."Oh no, what's that? Why is the car slowing down?" ……"The engine blew out? How could this happen? There is no oil? Why didn't anybody warn me? Poor me, why is the Universe punishing me?")

Being willing to be aware of what is going on and to be brutally honest with self are the keys. The truth is, you might not be able to fix the situation immediately. Some circumstances require careful planning. Often times you will start to feel some relief as you take steps towards resolving the issue, because your system knows, that it has gotten through to you with the message.

So be brave to ask 'what is the message here?' and 'what do I need to do to in order to resolve this issue?'

It doesn't matter if you are dealing with a headache, a more serious health issue, negativity in your mental body, a scary emotion, or energetic symptoms, be willing to listen to yourself, no matter how annoying the symptom might be.